Long time no news about me... I'm alive!

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Hello my dear followers and watchers! :hug: Long time no feature and news, huh? Well, I've been busy in the last two weeks and I feel really-really sorry that I couldn't spent that much time with you, I could not give feedback immediately, that's one more reason I'm looking forward to the end of school, when the exams are over...

Luckily I've experienced really many uplifting things in these two weeks. First I learned that the written part of my advanced level English school leaving exam became 95%, exactly what I expected, though it's really hard to achieve (Perfectionism rules! Oh wait, no, it doesn't.). I'd like to thank you all in Deviantart who have ever talked to me, I can't describe how this site and the lovely people on this site helped me to improve my English! :hug: I can never be grateful enough! :hug: I took the oral part of it last Friday, my teacher told that I could count with 100%... That would make my exam 96% altogether. I'll definitely let you know the results on Tuesday, when it turns out! :la: :giggle:

I spent really many time with my friends, received a gift from my dear sesam-is-open Selina, and this touched me really much! :hug: Thank you again, dear! :tighthug: I was invited to sing in a school worship band, not a too serious dearl, but a privilege anyway. And I started to teach English yesterday, I began with two 3rd grader little boys, they seem really enthusiastic and clever, and enjoyed the lesson really much. :) I was very nervous so I was glad that they immediately told a positive feedback! :D I hope I'll be able to tell the same about the 8th grader guy I'll start to teach next week. I've been looking for a job for really long, because I'd like to visit as many dA friends of mine as possible... And you know, flight tickets to somewhere far far away ain't free. But it seems I'll be able to finance it, as time goes, thank God!

Unfortunately there are also bad things to happen, like problems in my family and school... I'd rather abandon the first topic here, but the second... Well I'll take school-leaving exams from 4 subjects in May and June, oral and written parts... One teacher is good, one explains terrible, one has no clue what on Earth is she doing, but she's convinced that she's doing it perfectly, and if we don't think so (we don't think so) we are the nasty ones for telling her in a normal style... And the one left is - without exaggaration - a creepy opressor. Basically we're not learning the material of the exam, but absolutely needless stuff... :faint: So twice as much expectations, yaaay! I'll have to figure out how I'll survive this year, lol. :D

Nowadays with a couple of people we are going to churches (we're a church school) to recruit people from another towns and villages. And I managed to get a really spiritual experience due to this... After church service, we were invited to have lunch together... In the old people's home where my beloved Great-Gran spent her last year. I'd not say she died there, because she was transported to a hospital four days before her death, but you know... I had so many memories with that place. Luckily a girl was willing to escort me up to the room of my Great-Granny, I wanted to see if her roommates are still alive... But maybe really I just wanted to meet my memories. I only made it to the door, because I did not want to bother them... Then the group went around the home singing and playing the guitar, to cheer up those old ladies and gentlemen living there... It was so great to see that we made those people's day. The first thoughts of mine were that my Great-Gran would have loved this so, so much... She asked family members to sing by her death bed... She really loved music, especially worship songs, since she was a strong believer... 

Then at the corner of the second floor I suddenly broke down. That was the room of my Great-Gran. And you know, memories just came... My religion teacher offered me to come with me into that room, if it would calm me... It did. Her roommates were the same, one was watching the TV sitting nearby, because she couldn't hear anything, like always. One of them has sadly became a complete vegetable... But it was not so surprising... Last year she sarted to suffer from unconsciousness and dementia and that's not something that improved. One lady was able to approach, 93 years old, haven't changed a bit... I told her who I was and that I only wanted to ask if she is alright... She said that she felt goos and the nurses were kind... One thing was not the same, that a stranger woman's bed was in front of the door... That used to belong to my Great-Gran. The nurses came in to feed them, I apologized and explained why I came... They told they remembered my Great-Gran. The lady was right, nurses are really kind, they care(d) enough to remember Great-Gran almost a year after her death!

I was not there at the time when I could have said goodbye, I had bronchitis and I didn't want to make her any sicker... She passed in February and I met her last in January... She held my hand like if she never wanted me to go... And I thought then "What if we met for the very last time now?" People wondered that I knew her place so exactly, and that we had a strong bond... I guess that's because she was always a constant point in my life. Visiting Great-Granny with my Grandma, my Grandma going to Great-Gran, the family asking about her health and current attitude - that was a part of our timetable. I guess I'll never believe that she is gone, and it's always hard to face the proofs that she is...

But one thing will never change. The way I love her. I hope she would be proud of me from above.


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nosugarjustanger's avatar
You speak English excellently! :lol: 

Best wishes for you... some days we feel really sad, and that's what friends and families are for. :hug: